I wake up this morning, realizing for the first time in the long time that I am human and I have flaws and I will just have to learn to live with the truth.
Perhaps that truth is the real beauty of being human. It is why we are here and it is why we still need God. I have been running the race nonstop for the past three years. I have been working without taking a real vacation. Today, I wake up with a feeling that perhaps I have been running the wrong race, aiming at the wrong finish line. Perhaps, I am not qualified to be in this race since the beginning. Yet, the problem persists. Without this race, do I even know who I am anymore? My identity has been so attached to the goal that I have turned a blind eye to other important aspects in life. I have not strived to be the best mother, the best wife. Do I, after all these years, only have myself to blame?
I told my students yesterday that despite the fact we all are weary, we are not going to just disappear from the face of the earth if we fail. Thus, we shall keep trying. We shall keep putting our best effort in everything we do. We will have to survive somehow. Yet, perhaps, I just cannot live with my philosophy or at least it does not do me any good today. I seek retreat. I seek a time to reflect. I seek a period to admit that I am now a loser, but as long as I breathe, I still have to get up and run the race, hoping that someday I will overcome.
not too bad so far for foundation n primer my friends from chiang mai n i r planning now for beach trip around 6-11 may with 1 year kid. we'r now thinking abt koh samed(rayong) though. they've been there before n wanna go again (earlier plan's Surin island but been cancelled coz didnt hv time to prepare) for me I'vnt beeen there. but many said it's a good choice for samed na!!!
So sorry not to meet you. I live in Bala Cynwyd, about 5-10 minutes drive to Philly. Glad to hear that you enjoyed Philly. will give you a call if have a chance to go to NYC. God bless!
Working as CS manager in Logistics firm and it's been pretty great.I'm thankful for having my career and feel like working everydays..u know me(^_^)
Now what's so cool of my days is to look for yr words thru hi5. Goshhh terribly miss those days we had spent together in Chiang Mai...ah have u chat or contacted to our Wan lately? so pity i've lost her contact..
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